In Remembrance

I spent the whole day remembering
so many little things I forgot
and then I spent the night wondering
where my life went off track.

Was it when I turned my back
on what I’d always known
or when I fell right into
your smile, your laugh, your lies?

I think back to a simpler time
and I know things weren’t so simple
and I think back to life divine
and know it was all in my head.

When did I forget
exactly who I am
and when will I remember
how to be her again?

© Autumn Siders 2018
In Remembrance

In the Light

I knew what you wanted
by the look in your eye
but somehow I knew
it wasn’t happening tonight
so as I walked away
you made your move
and stopped me before
I had the chance to disapprove.
Something about
that look in your eye
moved me to tears
as I let out a sigh.
A sucker for maidens
and damsels in distress
all it took was mere minutes
before you were undressed.
I know that tomorrow
I won’t look you in the eye
as I scurry from your warmth
and form my next lie.
Was it worth it for you
to succumb to the night
when we both knew what
this would look like in the light?

© Autumn Siders 2018
In the Light