I used to live in a place

where you had to be tough.

If you wanted to live,

you might have to get rough.

Who knew that one day

I was destined to meet

two humans who love me

especially when I bite their feet?

Until I went home with them,

I never really knew

how to love or be loved

but now I think I do.

They tell me all the time

that I am a family cat

and that my bird is for loving,

but I can always eat the rats.

So family it would seem

means exactly what I thought,

find two suckers who love you

and love them back a lot.

(Do I get a fish now?)

© Autumn and Emilita Siders 2016

Words Fall

The words flow freely

whenever you are around

but without you here

I could live without a sound.

Whenever I am around you

I love the sound of my voice

and the words escape my heart

as if they’ve got no choice.

So why can’t I control this

since secrets are my friends?

How can I trust this feeling

when on you, my happiness depends?

© Autumn Siders 2016


Rain hammers away the sorrow

but will not rinses my soul clean

of the damage that’s been done

by all the words I didn’t mean.

The water rises over the walls

that I build to keep you out

and now they crumble and leak

and no one can hear me shout.

This flood that I created

is the product of your tears

which flow freely now

but have been held back for years.

© Autumn Siders 2016


All this time I thought I was stuck

in this little town

with these little people

collecting centuries of muck.

But as my ever deepening solitude grows,

I realize this little town

is not the prison

and everything I knew I do not know.

And all this time, I have been stuck

not in a little town,

but in the illusion of me

 pretending to give a fuck.

© AUtumn Siders 2016