Does She Know?

Does she know your favorite song?
Not the one by Drake
but the one you put on repeat
that summer we spent at the lake.

Does she know you hate your boss
but love your job?
And when you think of quitting
you go to the bathroom to sob.

Does she know the story
of the scar on your knee?
Or did you tell her the short version
you tried to tell me?

Does she know that look
that pierces right through
and uncovers every lie
turning it into truth?

Does she know that smile
is just hiding the tears
or that once upon a time
I helped you fight your fears?

Does she know my name
or that I even exist?
Does she know that my charm,
you couldn’t resist?

Does she know the reason
why you walked away?
‘Cause I’d love to hear
what you never did say.

© Autumn Siders 2018
Does She Know?

But I Won’t Do That

I can change my schedule
and I can lose some sleep.
I can make some changes
for the one that my heart keeps.
But certain things, you see,
will never ever change
no matter how much love
the two of us exchange.
I’ll still stop along the road
to chat with a frightened deer
and I’ll still sing so out of tune
that you’ll wish you had no ears.
I’ll still love my baby cat
more than you’ll ever know
and I’ll still be a mommy’s girl
even though I can let go.
I can open my heart
and sure I’ll let you in,
but I’ll never change who I am
or where my soul had been.
There’s a lot that I would do
just to see you smile
so long as you remember,
I’ve been me for a while.

© Autumn Siders 2018
But I Won’t Do That


Falling in love
is like hearing a new song;
Sometimes you love at first listen,
sometimes it takes a time or two.
Pretty soon you learn all the words
and feel every beat too.
You play it on repeat
and can’t wait to listen again.
Eventually you know it
inside and out.
You sing it in your head.
You play it in your heart.
Then you tire out
and never want to hear it again.
From the very first note,
your skin begins to cringe.
So you move on to something new
and fall in love again,
thinking this is the song
you’ve been waiting for all along.

© Autumn Siders 2017